I drew a heart With an arrow on her sneaker Ballpoint initials Were still a secret She braided my hair Down my back when I'd meet her Under the culvert Our toes in the water We read about a women Shaved her head for the service No bulge in her pants Must have made the men nervous They strapped her down right Licked her cheeks And they hurt her Chelsea, is this The way we go under? And now she's gone How is she gone? They wouldn't let me have her They couldn't know how I loved her Chelsea grew angry And thin like worn leather She pierced both her lips And she spit at the teachers "You assholes don't know How those other girls treat me Shoot gum in my hair They carved 'dyke' on my chair" Down south the professors Remain built of potential They fed my right ear Scratched the left out as evil I met a young man Boring and gentle He dug me a koi pond Menorah on the mantle And now she's gone How is she gone? They wouldn't let me have her They couldn't know how I loved her Now I'm another Gray with arthritis I drive by the culverts I drown by my memories I think of her hands And her love And her anger Chelsea, is this The way we stay under? And now you're gone How are you gone? They wouldn't let me have you They couldn't know how I loved her