5: isolated times I was growing up 6 feet underwater I can't seem to count to 7 Breathe deep, 11 I thought the world was ending I'm so afraid of growing up; Fell into the devil's cup I'm so afraid of growing up; Fell into the devil's cup '22: will I live to see you? In the mirror, I see a soul Who's lost inside their goals Chasing past dreams What do her visions mean? Angels calling to me I'm so afraid of growing up; Fell into the devil's cup I'm so afraid of growing up; Fell into the devil's cup Sunny, sunny days, my shadows drift in the rear Wishing it was safe to expose all of my fears Tried to tell my fam, it resulted in my tears Now I'm alienated, they been calling me queer, I Pray up to the angels in hopes I endear But they just spite me down, I try to keep it cavalier Picking up the pieces to keep it together Holding it down even through the bad weather Never thought I'd see the day where you become an enemy Used to hold you close you was more than a friend to me Angels, taking me away Tryna hold my ground Hope I live another day Home, sweet, home