All the time I question everything And I feel like it's wrong Just to pool my thoughts together wishing the list wasn't so long And you tell me that I'm selfish And I know that it's the truth For who would sit inside her bedroom wishing that I could be with you And I tell myself I'm worthy but I know that I am not I will isolate myself And my skin will start to rot And my heart will bust to pieces They're too small to just pick up See our lives will flash before my eyes And my blood will fill the cup Cause it's so scary Just the thought of you And I am married To the thought of you See it's 6am and I am half awake and I am lost I've been up all night and my heart feels like it's about to pop All the drugs I take will overwhelm me 'til I am but dust Blowing through the wind wishing that I could find another rush But the wind will die and I will wish for peace inside my mind Need to get away from hoping all the days will turn to nights And my thoughts will stray and I will be okay to just get high Excuses I will tell myself until my final night Cause it's so scary Just the thought of you And I am married To the thought of you Cause it's so scary Just the thought of you And I am married To the thought of you