I feel conflicted, but it's excitement Maybe I'm nervous, mostly I like it It's like the house light I keep unlit Last box in the basement, I've got a secret I've got a secret under the carpet I can't remember in which compartment The mind holds memories of days we've missed I miss being certain, certainly I miss Fallin' for the afterthought Of feelin' what I want I want to feel everything But when I do it makes me Question if I'm falling wrong Don't wanna break something And people say it can belong As long as it's unseen I feel uneasy, internal conflict My head and my heart try to rephrase the argument As "You didn't feel that," now I feel gaslit Torch my emotions, please change the subject Fallin' for the afterthought Of feelin' what I want I want to feel everything But when I do it makes me Question if I'm falling wrong Don't wanna break something And people say it can belong As long as it's unseen I feel confused by what I'm ashamed for I feel ashamed by my human nature Choose to adapt new outward behavior To feel accepted, people are built for Actin' like there's nothing wrong So they can just belong Sometimes I just wanna But if I did it'd make you Question if I'm worthy of Feeling love It's funny how we get along Just as long as I'm quiet