My own worst critic, ok, I admit it (it was me)
Sometimes I finished lists just to say I did it (sorry)
Pressure makes diamonds, tighten up the screws (sike)
But now the battery's dead, think I blew a fuse
Iron Man athlete, blood, sweat, tears
No meat, caffeine, days off, or beers (I'm so tired)
Scraping at my soul meaning's on paper
But I left my gas tank with nothing more than vapors I'm
Tryna stand strong (yes), man I can't quit (I)
But I'm straight stuck (can't), can't do shit (damn!)
Crave freedom and I find it when I'm spitting but
When I'm just a wisp, I can't give away the wisdom (there's nothin' left)
Gotta fill up the journal like a Reese's cup
The good shit is internal (it's inside)
Engine on fire, please proceed with caution
And I'm back to square one, and I need new options (anybody?)
I know the pattern, this is all old trauma
Crazy sensitive so I struggle with the drama
I go insane when my brain can't refrain from the games
I'm seasick, damn, I gotta maintain
I train every day, and I can run fast
It doesn't matter if a storm's in the forecast
I feel panic if I think about a day off
But when I take care of me, it pays off
I train every day, and I can run fast
It doesn't matter if a storm's in the forecast
I feel panic if I think about a day off
But when I take care of me, it pays off
Paths forward often found by the ones who look
So don't let perfection keep away the good (put it out)
Self-worth is not the same as your outcomes
If I thought that, y'all would never get an album (but really, never)
I would never take a risk, I would squander all my gifts
I'm oversimplifying (a little) but I think you get the gist
I exist to persist, find the love that I missed
But I got to love me first, ain't that about a bitch (yes)
I wanna right my wrongs
Take my whole damn life and pour it into songs
I'm making the hay, riding the waves, living my life
Throwing the dice, taking the fight, can't do it twice, get you a slice
Yeah
I train every day, and I can run fast
It doesn't matter if a storm's in the forecast
I feel panic if I think about a day off
But when I take care of me, it pays off
I train every day, and I can run fast
It doesn't matter if a storm's in the forecast
I feel panic if I think about a day off
But when I take care of me, it pays off