I used to be a drinker
Nothing fatal, nothing bad
I could take down any obstacle
With a cold beer in my hand
But I stumbled, lost my balance
Slipped, unhinged both of my knees
I quit nine months ago
You ruined that for me
Then I started smoking cigarettes
As a way to pass the time
To stop my hands from shaking
Like my bones were misaligned
As I leaned into the habit
Clenched, ground down all my teeth
I quit nine days ago
You ruined that for me
I confess, I am a liar
I can tell this is a joke
Both the seller and the buyer
Of the words you never spoke
I'm at the mercy of my vices
Left to my own devices
And I'm weak when I'm burnt out -
I can't quit you for now
Got obsessive with the notion
That you're happy, that you're fine
Couldn't stop my greedy fingertips
From checking out online
And the deeper down I wandered
Sucker punch right to my spine -
I had to stop nine hours ago
She ruined that this time
I confess, I am a liar
I can tell this is a joke
Both the seller and the buyer
Of the words you never spoke
I'm at the mercy of my vices
Left to my own devices
And I'm weak when I'm burnt out -
I can't quit you for now
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Oh I'm weak when I'm burnt out
I can't quit you for now
I tried to practice yoga
So to focus on my mind
To cleanse you from my body
Leave addicted life behind
And then I poured you in a journal
Lit a candle every night –
But no matter what I write
No ritual, no shrine
I give up every time
And I can't quit you,
I can't quit you
I can't quit you –
I tried