The crack between hide and flesh Slashed, whipped and flayed Lashed for the sins of my father, A decrepit malnourished monster, Sadistic nurture Loveless torture to fill an empty soul This caress of tender hate, oh why must I suffer this fate? Oh dear mother please send me signs and guide me, a light in the dark, A slithering of hope So I can live, Adhere to my pathetic pleas A safe passage through the cracks Of these malicious deeds Four years have passed, since I have felt at all enamoured. The crows caw a song, each one more bleaker than the latter. Its as if even so, suffering helped me to go And leave this coffin for the woods that bestowed Falling into an abyss. Seeking solace in the suffering, Embrace the ambiguity of what is in life And though, The skies are grey, The darkness overbearing A hollowed soul, Retching from disease and famine Either I am dead or the ghost that was me A bastard Child Black Hearted Condemned to Martyrdom Through the looking glass a realm of isolation. Death procured my blight. In debt to the black arts yet Obstinate in cessation Abhorred at the mere sight The Son Of Self Afflictions Plight A sudden glimmer of anguish spills forth, for I know I am too late Rah "Father, please forgive me for it will not happen again" The sunken sallow eyes just glare at me I ensure a brutal lashing My mind dwells on the despair accompanied with the Deafening loneliness The constant swirling in my head, as the pressure builds, The cataclysm Scratching at my scalp, Tearing out chunks of hair and flesh Oh someone hear my needs, someone please adhere to my needs Peel the flesh from bone. (consume it) Call of baal, the night grows cold. (exhuming) All last trace of life The definition of contorting ones soul Thats when the shadow shows it's near, the same that lurked my steps The warming comfort of the being As I embrace, the feeling of nothingness It Overtakes me Becoming at one with the plague It takes my hand, the gentle touch of a friend It fills my tender heart with joy The relief of unraveling stress "Oh dear friend, take me else where, Im sick of this miserable place" The shadow lures me down trails I've not seen yet before, A face so familiar, an aura so pure. Through twisted trees and deep marsh swamp, trudging evermore We tread to the clear opening This cruel beast pulled me down the crack, A ravine that lay near. Thus completing the ritual Thine father sent into a blind rage at my recent disappearance The rotten cunt thrashing round his house, looking for the blade Raises it to the sky Before scarring his head for the plague