A massive moon A jumped-up ape I kiss the earth and choke And make it to gatwick With a drill And ten red roses I slip and fall A banana skin Break out my heart Only waving This night's fine And all is fair In love And the war within me raging You kill me off in theory Then you pardon me for breathing The sweet smell of the street It was so forgiving I threw everything at you My misery, my joy and truth My haemorrhaging time You probably don't remember me Et in arcadia ego My feelings did so very much for you I threw nearly everything at you My misery, my joy and truth My haemorrhaging time And my piecemeal grief And all I was in other eyes I described it as I did I tried to find the words to buy you Cut through to your pretty bones like kindness You didn't love me with a vengeance It was always coming true Am I lucky to be alive, my friend? I've been expecting you You probably don't remember me The bad old days and so on Back when there was something wrong with love Little room, jumped-up ape I kiss the floor and joke "You're not the only child round here" In seaweed paint I dance for you Round the ruins, round the view The helen & menelaus snack bar Then you killed me off in theory Et in arcadia ego My feelings did so very much for you The pain is so extraordinary This pain in all it's story tells me Pain's the best all purpose preservative You were one of my better creations Everything's permitted I hereby swear I cannot change this is how I see it In these words not other words Nor at other times nor otherwise Nor otherwise nor otherwise You didn't love me with a vengeance It was always coming true Am I lucky to be alive, my friend? I've been expecting you