I swear to myself that I really ain't need you when you weren't there.
Caught in a lot of despair
My feelings get blown right into the thin of the air.
The Sentiments that are revealed having troubled my view
Imma need to come out of this spell
Dreaming inside of a cell
Awaken the noise
I really ain't got no choice
So pull up on the trigger
Let the bullet go and spray
Why Confront the force
You will be forced to walk away
Tell you all a lie
Just to lye here in pain
Why must I decide
To divide and delay
Coming out the gutter
With a little bit of mud
I swear to god
I never know when to shut the fuck up
Wearing a sign tagged up I love her
I'm gonna find myself some comfort
Suffer the fate I care for nothing
Limit the sky it's just a fuckin' way to think you stand for something
Castin out the line I know I'm finally saved
I know that I'm vain
I always wished another life and face
Reminisce about the past and then I gasp and wince
Suffocate and now I wish I died
I'll never miss
Time is slipping
Wish I hadn't missed
Another kiss dismissed
To my dismay I hit another spliff and blew it all away
I'm gone with the wind
Again and again
I spend a day of splendor
Lost in the thoughts
A letter I lost
She wrote return to sender
I suffocate and lacerate
The memories so I can find a way
To write this song
There's nothings left to right
But wrongs I feel inside
My chest feels like it's caving in I have to stop
So this is it
I blow a kiss
Pull the trigger
Then I'm gone
One hit two hit
Free me from my tortuous ways
I cannot ease my mind
Although I try on most days
I fill my cup with what I must
My ignorant haze
She played her game I'll follow suit
My hand full with spades
You dig that hole
From what I know blade buries the same
Stabbed in the back
It's a fine line between pleasure and pain
I'll get her back my love attack
She cried when she came
This flame got cold this fight gets old
Watch you suffocate
Spread across my eyes these white lines
Hold the sheet above my head
Tuck me away with a tag
Stainless steel for a new bed
I wanna hold these moments a little longer
Wouldn't you wanna see me stronger
It's not like its somber
Look towards the light and
I promise it's over
Welted my life with your hate
Beaten til I could no longer take it
I'm willing to face it
This love was a period of hatred
Complacent
You taste it
I wasted most of my youth
Half of the time I was fighting the truth
Fuck it
I'd be lying if I said I never loved you