I try and describe the hurt But I can't find the words Is this what I deserve? Is this what I deserve to be? I just can't commit But it's so hard to quit Is this the way it is? Is this the way it has to be? I know what I want to say Not how to say it I wish it was easy To get all this out of my head But shit ain't as simple As talking about all the feelings That I don't know how to express Now it's a problem A blunt and a bottle I swim to the bottom of Out of regret That never solve it What did I expect? I don't bring it up to you Out of respect For you All I go through It's all old news to you You don't care to hear it now Or hear about it You don't care to hear me out And I'm so used to it I'm no use to you I try and describe the hurt But I can't find the words Is this what I deserve? Is this what I deserve to be? I just can't commit But it's so hard to quit Is this the way it is? Is this the way it has to be?