I've been waking up at night All these thoughts that flood my mind Keep me up through the dark Next day I just press rewind I can make it stop but I Like these walls I've built inside No one knows where I hide Close my eyes and I'll be gone They say, "You're too old to be afraid Of some monsters under bed" But they live inside my head Show me how Can I rise above the waves When the current pulls me in I drift away, still You're here for me Show me how To be stronger than the tide How to cross the ocean wide I fall away, still You're here for me Lately I've been quite a mess I look at my reflection, then I change my skin and walk away I never do the things I say 20 years inside this head But I feel like I'm someone else I talk to God, ask why I'm here He says to be patient still