I pace around at night
I face the light to brace for death I might
Have said nvm and smile at my girl
So she'd don't know I cry along beside
Her while she sleeps and dreams of happy times
I'm wiping tears and trying not to wake her
Dang I hate to die
But here I am again, at 3 A.M. to get
My head around the idea that some day I won't be here
And it's hard, oh God I feel so scarred
I'm scared as hell to face myself
My mind rips me apart
I start to doze, my eyes begin to close
And than I open then and then I pace inside my room
I'm so alone, I'm cold
I'm sick 'cause even though
I have a girl to hold me
I won't wake her up and so I'm froze
It's 3 A.M., I'm doing the same thing again
I'm alone, and I wished I wasn't anymore
Listen man I get it, I'm so luck I was given
A chance at happiness to find a dream
And than I lived it, but I'm getting
Sick of it because I visited
I meet with dad like everyday
He's gone and so I miss him man like
Everyday, I drop down to my knees and pray
I say his name, but I know the truth
He's gone and so he ain't
Even listening
And if he was, what would he say?
I'm all alone, I know I'm not
But it just doesn't feel the same
I'm so ashamed at all the things I face at night
I take the blame, I hate the way I hate myself
I go to sleep and than I wake
It's 3 A.M., I'm doing the same thing again
I'm alone, and I wished I wasn't anymore
It's 3 A.M., I'm doing the same thing again
I'm alone, and I wished I wasn't anymore