Long, I've slept in way too long
It's almost night again
Missed calls from my friends
If the grand plans in my head
Were in front of me instead
I'd rocket from this bed
Even though I know I should awake
I feel like I could die and that'd be ok
No one ever asks to be grown up
We just have to go with what we got
Something is wrong
I feel it beneath all this sloth, haze, and lethargy
Something is wrong
Long, I've waited far too long
Where do I begin?
It's hard remembering
Am I, I completely through
Or is my heart just bruised
And feeling worn and used?
I've been being lazy far too long
Drinking things I know are way too strong
It's funny how we try to act grown up
Dinner dates and late night liquor stops
I've never been strong
I seem to have dry bones where there should be solid steel
My day dreams were long
They wrapped around poems, arrangements, and melodies
I lack the passion to conquer, honey
So maybe I'll just be who I've been
I'll look on to the day I'll look back, wishing I could be here again
We all want to be patient zero, catalyst to decades of change
But the culture of young dumb money only gets me feeling estranged
There are days when everything is wrong
I've procrastinated far too long
Even when I'm drowsy I can't sleep
Like someone doesn't want me to have dreams
Something is wrong
I'm trying so hard just to keep a good grip on things
I've never been strong
Oh lord will you be all the strength and the wits I need?
Everything I want is here