I've been so chemically dependent
Well adjusted and depressed
I buy my thrills and pay my bills
And they both get repossessed
If I had the time or money to find myself
Would I really become anybody else?
From the moment adulthood dragged me
Out of wonder and into work
I've wondered why I work the dirt then pay to rent the earth
It's harder than I want to dismiss the thought
Under the thumb of the hand that feeds me
It doesn't feel good
Like I thought it would
So do we just put our bones through the motions
Until we're long in the tooth?
Fistfuls of youth to remind us
We don't reach out like we used to
Collapse into the codependence of a sandalwood scented home
When the air is sweet on the garbage heap, why would you go into parts unknown?
When I start to see myself in somebody else do I make a change?
Or am I the one who needs it?
It's hard to tolerate
The sound that ego makes
When it's the only thing left in the room after you
Buy the view and assume they'd let you take it with you
So do we just put our bones through the motions
Until we're long in the tooth?
Fistfuls of youth to remind us
That we don't reach out like we used to
Optimistic limbs keep me in your grip
'Cause if you learn to let me go I'll never be more
Than a photograph of the life I had before I pulled the curtain back
And chose not to ignore that we all just
Fear the end of automatic motion
When there's nothing left of our youth
It crosses my mind every night now
If I found peace would I keep it?