My brain's been tearing itself apart these past few days
And this routine does nothing but leave me drained
And nights consist of fighting myself
I'm feeling like i'm stuck up on an old shelf
No one said growing up would be easy
But i never thought it would be this hard
There's an aching in my legs
From chasing down the thought of you
Bet i only cross your mind from time to time
Am i happy here alone or am i still just lonely?
How do i be alone without being lonely?
The only thing you ever gave me was your pity
But it's not like i've ever been
Down on my knees and begging
You keep acting like you care
But we both know it's for yourself
So take his hand and run from here
'Cause a life without you is no longer a fear
I've held back from punching holes in every wall i've seen
Trying to keep these hands at least a little clean
But you can't blame me for feeling this amount of stress
When you're the one that's made me seem like such a mess
There's an aching in my legs
From chasing down the thought of you
Bet i only cross your mind from time to time
Am i happy here alone or am i still just lonely?
How do i be alone without being lonely?