I seem to hurt what I love
I never meant to rub salt in your cuts
I'm still fighting these addictions that I learnt from my mum
Tryna do my very best but end up worse on the drugs
And the more that I neglect you makes it worse for our son
Doing the same dumb mistakes dad did to us kids
Another sad case addict with my face in a drink
Tryna drown all my demons but they learnt how to swim
Fuck it, I'll just another and I'll pray that they sink
Blame it on the way Im raised or Im just fucked in the head
And I don't want my son to see me at rock bottom again
Daddy's been a little busy tryna clean up his mess
Just remember that I love you and don't ever forget
But I been burning up my lungs and getting high as a kite
The same shit that seems to help will be my very demise
I look back in her eye's, All the tears have gone dry
Cos this relationship sank a long time ago right?
Like what's the point of all bullshit and arguments
It's my fault I've burnt you out like a fuckin arsonist
I don't wanna see him be apart of this, I hate myself
Turning out the same way my poor excuse father did
I should know better apples never fall far from the tree
And I promise that I'll change I know it's hard to believe
I'm just tryna break the cycle to be the man that he needs
If I don't? I'll walk the plank and drown my demons sea. Myself
Got the music in you baby tell me why
Got the music in you baby tell me why
You've been locked in here forever and you just can't say goodbye
And all these Over time hours after daily routines
A small cost of me still here chasing my dreams
But high hopes got me faded just to get through the week
I thought rap was my only release
And this alcohol addiction has me stranded at sea
I been soul searching bottles now I'm stuck in the deep
I keep falling to my feet now there's blood on my knee's
It's from fighting these addictions that I thought that I beat
And now I'm back abusing drugs after 8 months clean
I'm still tryna do right with my heart on my sleeve
New extreme's keep me pacing and I can't get to sleep
I feel weak when I write these type of bars to a beat
But fuck it
I'm hurting more than she knows
I just wear a brave face keep my mind on the go
Cos If I'm sitting staying idle then I'll fucking explode
I'm overthinking again, and I know how it goes
But I'm a father now I got a son to nurture and grow
So I dig a little deeper and still carry the load
I'm afraid but I never let my fears get exposed
I wrote this fucking track a thousand times in my notes
Thinking every time I write it is a new way to cope
But the burdens get heavier the nights get messier
Exhale a chamber of smoke
Now I'm high for the moment to escape all the lows
For real
Got the music in you baby tell me why
Got the music in you baby tell me why
You've been locked in here forever and you just can't say goodbye