I am lost, I am flawed, yes at my best
I'm not afraid to accept the things that I've fucked up
But when I'm gone, you can burry me with things
That I made for my friends with love
I'll leave you with this
What got lost in the midst of the deafening sadness
Is that I'll leave behind
Records that document our lives
I'll leave you with this
Piece of myself after years where I hadn't
Felt like I could ask for help
The hope and pain inside memorialized
I was hospitalized and I almost gave up
So if you think that you can take this from me now
You'll need the barrel of a gun
'Cause words over chords
Reflect the things our hearts endure
I'll leave you with this
What got lost in the midst of the deafening sadness
Is that I'll leave behind
Records that document our lives
I'll leave you with this
Piece of myself after years where I hadn't
Felt like I could ask for help
There are notes with delay
That crystallize our darkest days
The tape is spinning, the candles lit
And you won't have to miss me 'cause I'm gonna live
I am preparing for the journey instead
By learning what I can from all the pieces of wreckage
There is a light that's flickering up ahead
My face reflects all the things that I wish I had said
But this is all I know, I know
Saying this out loud makes me feel less alone
I'll leave you with this
What got lost in the midst of the deafening sadness
Is that I'll leave behind
Records that document our lives
I'll leave you with this
Piece of myself after years where I hadn't
Felt like I could ask for help
And these notes will become
Will fight the things that hides inside