Lying in a grave that I dug myself Wishing that my life belonged to somebody else Know I'm gonna live, but I think I might die Crushed by the weight of my personal hell I'm so fucked up I don't know my own name Think I'd learn by now that it's always the same I know that I'm gonna die, that I'm gonna die someday But it's so goddamn good when it's been in my brain Cocaine Jesus Feel like heaven and I'm feeling so good And I said I wasn't gonna when I knew that I would Gonna kick it soon, gonna be the last time I'd quit lying to myself if I thought that I could I never would have started if I saw myself now Now I want to stop it, but I just don't know how I've done worshipped at the idol and I want to get out But Cocaine Jesus, he would never allow Cocaine Jesus