I'm laying on my bedroom floor
Left alone with all my thoughts
I don't know if I can do this
After all
I look at old photos and I wonder what she'd think
Cause the little girl that's in there she's nothing like me
And I don't recognize myself
Anymore
And the birthdays I would wait for
Are now the ones I dread
I used to wish that I was older
But now I wish I could stop time instead
I'll never play mermaids in the pool
Or learn to ride a bike again
Or walk up to someone new and in seconds have a best friend
No more recess
No more playing games
Not really thinking about anything
No more princesses or fairytales
The curtains they finally fell
They yelled cut
Then suddenly
I'm forced to face some twisted reality
It's all been hitting me since I turned 18
And soon I'll be 20
I didn't think growing up would be this hard
It's crazy how life can catch you off guard
I guess this is what it is
After all
They took down our pictures
The girls I once considered my sisters
I'll never know why
Go figure
I'll never walk those hallways
Or make careless decisions again
I guess at some point everything has to come to an end
No more window shopping
Making plans
Inside jokes only we understand
I think I just heard the final bell
And the curtains they finally fell
They yelled cut
Then suddenly
I'm forced to face some twisted reality
It's all been hitting me since I turned 18
And soon I'll be 20
And just like that I'm not the one in the school bus
I'm in the car driving behind it
Seeing kids live out the same life that I used to live
Will I feel this way when I'm 80
Can someone please explain this to me
I feel like crying
Earth sign
Brown eyes
My face has hardly changed overtime