Yeah I hope you know you should play this shit on my death day Though I need to be remembered in the best way But these days ain't been feeling like my best days So hard to get this weight up off my chest mane But it is what it is and it be what it be Shit gon change like seasons to me And it won't ever have no meaning to me Cause I'm the only motherfucker that's believing in me Done fell off track, I slip, I fall Still gon thug shit out through it all Sometimes I don't nobody to call and the phone just ring ring Sound so small Drove myself crazy, writing on the wall Shit went left and it's all my fault It's all on me, I can't blame y'all Got too much drive, no time to stall Spitting to the mic feel just like therapy I take drugs tryna find clarity Get high, laugh, cry, oh my hilarity Damn it only take away the pain momentarily Blowing smoke and going ghost, it ain't no joke And I could ask for help, they syllables won't hit my throat Cause they gon stab my back if I let em get too close And I know, I know, I know, I know I'm better off alone My whole life is a long day They only care when the numbers go up and I look good on luck And they wanna see me on stage Man, they been calling me the wrong name Damn Maybe I done gone the wrong way They never gave a fuck about a cry for help They only care bout likes and some signs of wealth Lost some friends and damn well sacrificed my health Getting lost in a mad mind Swear, I been tryna live that rap life But it's hard when the shit don't change and the days all the same Good days turn to bad nights Sometimes, I just wanna flatline What a bad sign And a sad sight I know that's right I know that's right Still it is what it is and it be what it be Close my eyes, no need to see I fall apart so frequently And try to put it back together by the mufuckin' seams Don't know why I slip and fall Still gotta thug shit out through it all I really don't got nobody to call Phone just ring ring, sound so small Still right here, just writing on the wall All this shit been all my fault All on me I can't blame y'all Still got this drive no time to stall All along through it all Yeah, all alone through it all All alone through it all