I'm chilling with my demons So the evils hardly scaring me I put these words on line to past the time And reach some clarity Fair to me Man my life ain't fair to me I cannot give care to me I cannot think thoroughly Feel like I can die right now Damn I might need therapy I look at life hysterically You get a chance to reach these heights But know it's not a guarantee I get the chance to take the hike I wonder what is there for me You get a chance to live this life You need to do it, carefully I know lucy daring me Tempting me to sell my soul So I can have the merry things I give my girl my heart and soul I'm hoping that she'll marry me Depression wanting me alone Avoiding those who there for me Desperate and moving slowly I'm a dead man walking This shit ain't poetry Just a dead man talking Wish you would've noticed me Right before I lost it Wish you would've noticed me right before Before I hit that dead end When I was in my head and Contemplating living life Cause I was seeing red then Where'd my light go Scared of telling the truth Cause I ain't psycho Felt my self cut loose But that wasn't right though But what is there to fight for If it was up to me not you I'll prolly let my life go You ask what I was meant do The hell if even I know Feel like I was meant to lose I'm trying to break the cycle They say that I just need some hope But it's hard for me to cope They say that I just need some hope But it's hard for me to cope They say that I just need some hope But it's hard for me to cope But it's hard for me to cope But it's hard for me to cope They say that I just need some hope But it's hard for me to cope They say that I just need some hope But it's hard for me to cope They say that I just need some hope But it's hard for me to cope But it's hard for me to cope But it's hard for me to cope Yo! Maybe I just need to do it like this Uh yeah Uh yeah My mind is always tearing me me apart My life ain't really fair you see what's fair to me Is only my anxiety gone Got a sobriety bong Why would I lie in these songs Y'all niggas eyein me wrong Think I've decided I'm igniting a new light up in my path Cuttin' everything attached I'm practicing releasing control, I let it flow When I'm on the road and you lonely, let me know I been smoking dope with the homies, just to cope But I really need to get to it, on my own Love is detected by love, not the mind Open up your heart, said there's loving that you can find Ain't in no one else you just got it from deep inside Everybody got negative thoughts, even the thugs do Everyone got negative thoughts, even the bus dude Everyone got negative thoughts, even your cuz' who, always seem so happy but is mind Is in a I just wanna live for a little bit' Yeah I wanna live it large You been talking' so much, in my head, oh man Yeah How did it get this far? Get this far Get this far I said your a hangman Say what I say man Talking to you, everyday man But recently You gotta problem with me You been telling me to change see you stopping me I can see it in the daytime obviously, obviously Don't offer me You been stressing me out, just while you sleep Why you gotta be a nuisance man it's not that deep, not that deep, not that deep, not That deep