Tryna love myself again
Patience ties all loose amends
And I'm trying hard, hard to find myself
And maybe time will tell us where we end
I hate it when I see you cry
So much pain that you swallowed 'til you're numb inside
I been afraid of life the moment when I realized
How much happiness people have can be a lie, yeah
Or how much we lose just to feel more
Won't sell out to sell out the film more
If the rain come, work like we still poor
If they take me away, girl, I'm still yours, uh
High fever, couldn't talk last night, my throat shut
I stayed up 'til I saw light, my mind took flight
No matter what, I promise you gon' be alright
Hold you close like I felt new heights, uh huh
I been thinking, am I comfortable sinkin'?
Or did I take a leap of faith, and now I live in the deep end?
Will my hands come out empty if I took what wasn't worth keepin'?
End up longing for something I had at the beginning
Handful of secrets I keep tucked up in the ceiling
Deal with my feelings by seeing a villain, one in a million
When my soul is done healin', need a moment, couple of minutes
I need more joy to come visit, yeah
Hands shaking at the thought of regret
Think you got it figured out 'til the moment it bends
You see what you truly love when you don't choose how it ends
I'm tense, terrified to see the place where I end, yeah
Tryna love myself again
Patience ties all loose amends
And I'm trying hard, hard to find myself
And maybe time will tell us where we end
If it goes up, it goes south
Made hope my ghost house, last night I broke down, uh
Life motto is, "I hope it works out"
Someone tell me why everything just hurts now, uh
What's living if your hair don't stand up?
Crazy how I hand out love before I hand trust
Tryna find a star to land us
This was never plan B, this was plan us, uh
Maybe I just need a home
Maybe people feel numb when they feel alone
Rather keep quiet than to feel wrong
Rather hold on, this stays so long, I know I've been gone
Tears falling down with no cause
Russian roulette with my thoughts
What will I lose just to find me on top?
Will I have to be everything that I'm not?
Who gonna save me if I really can't stop?
My fear is so vivid, it's like I really do live it
Is it a product of faith, or is it the fact I don't listen?
Am I looking for love in things that don't give it?
Give it space in my life, then go and wonder what is it?
Timid making every decision, moments I'm drifting
Wishing I could be different, working for all my regrets to be lifted
Listening to God, I know there's more to learn in it
All of it, just gotta give it
That's where I'll see where I'll end up to be
Tryna love myself again
Patience ties all loose amends
And I'm trying hard, hard to find myself
And maybe time will tell us where we end