Waking up next to nothing
After dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone waking up so relieved
While you're taking your plans for revenge
Eyes open up I'm next to nothing
I still feel hurt deep down it's crushing
If there was a god then he'd make it all stop
Frayed encased in my skull with the forbidden thoughts
I had assumed it was just us two
Did you ever love me when I still loved you
Or did you already plan then to hang me out
Tell me now I'll add that to my daily doubts
Right next to the one that says I will live long
Might have wished you well but the sentiment's gone
I had good intent but that's old and spent
I had watched that whole uncontrolled descent
Dope ill so I stay bedridden
Wouldn't know that I'm sick cause I keep it well hidden
Death been on the rise I can sense hell's bidding
And I ain't drug free say fuck a red ribbon
Waking up next to nothing
After dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone waking up so relieved
While you're taking your plans for revenge
Why would you think that you owe me shit
When I hate these trips and I only bitch
Bout the time that I'm having in my loneliness
And you didn't warn me but my homies did
That if this goes on and it runs it's course
That I'll be forced then to my last resort
Blown a hole in my skull going off impulse
I won't see what you did but that's void and null
You would get joy outta faking wisdom
When you hear these words I predict you'll twist em
Making a plot see you take your revenge
I don't have energy cause I'm feeling entrenched
You would tell me so frequently beg on knees and be pleading me
That we'd make it but conveniently I see that you're leaving me
I could try to confide in you but I'd rather be fighting you
Take my heart and my tongue and undo the way it's been tied in two
Waking up next to nothing
After dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone waking up so relieved
While you're taking your plans for revenge