I know that I'll be home tonight
But I'm not too sure that I'll make it through the night
Think I'm letting go, think I'll let you know
When I'm growing slow, but I'm halted though
I'm seeking me
While I'm running from my entity
I've been thinking lately bout how I can better myself
And I've been struggling thinking so I better reach out for help
In this world, who do we have but ourselves
And messages can always help but do the people reach out
They probably don't, but I can reach a bottle pass me that shit
I know it hurts me, but how else should I be dealing with this
And I'm sick of being pissed, drunk, sick when I wake up
Thrift what I'm made of so I can erase love
Don't judge me for nothing if you don't know what I've seen
Oh fuck it, I know you're right I just can't see reality
I make excuses for nothing I'm living like it's a dream
I'm moving back and forth, I'll pass the torch to someone who's clean, but
Living like I'm never gonna get better ain't helping nothing so I don't know what to do anymore
But I'll be good I just have life to overcome
And I know maybe in my next life I won't have to struggle, find out tomorrow
I know that I'll be home tonight
But I'm not too sure that I'll make it through the night
Think I'm letting go, think I'll let you know
When I'm growing slow, but I'm halted though
I'm seeking me
While I'm running from my entity
How could I love myself when no one loves me
I miss the days when I thought everyone was too much to see
Up in class with the pencil and the surroundings
Look now I wish I could go back, and I could savor those weeks
Too many times I tried to overcome the anxiety
It's invincible and no one gets it, it lives and it breathes
The mixture of antidepressants yeah it's killing me weak
I know there's better ways to cope, I take the easier street
Now there's more to life than depression, even I doubt it, think about it
I might have things to cry about but more to be proud of
And I learned over the years, if no one wants me, I do
And that means more than the world so until the flowers don't bloom
I'll fight for life in itself
I'll fight for my mental health
I'll fight for you to know you're okay, and I'll fight for myself
A pictures worth a thousand words but I know music is more
So what's the point in holding back, I know that you're worth the world, yo
I know that I'll be home tonight
But I'm not too sure that I'll make it through the night
Think I'm letting go, think I'll let you know
When I'm growing slow, but I'm halted though
I'm seeking me
While I'm running from my entity