I try to run away from these empty feelings Cause self loathing is under my skin again Some days it feels like I have no meaning Cause it's 3 am and I'm still awake Lately I'm so afraid that I might let you down My conscience is killing me but I won't make a sound Maybe I'm Just a little blind Just a little high It feels better when I close my eyes Lately I'm so afraid that I might let, I might let you down Self doubt is hard to forget When I'm losing my friends Cause I don't see the world like them And I don't want to admit That I'm losing my grip on life Cause I'm still awake I'm just a little bit jaded Lately I'm so afraid that I might let you down My conscience is killing me but I won't make a sound Maybe I'm Just a little blind Just a little high It feels better when I close my eyes Lately I'm so afraid that I might let, I might let you down That I might let you down Yeah, yeah I feel like I'm a loser Like I don't deserve you Rewriting my thoughts They're a suicidal haiku Push you all away when you try to get closer Buried half my family and finally got closure Oh yeah yeah, oh yeah yeah Uh huh La la la lately I'm so afraid that I might let you down Yeah yeah, yeah yeah La la la lately I'm so afraid that I might let you down Yeah yeah Fuck Yeah yeah La la la