I had a dream you killed me Bread knife to my throat You cracked a smile and kissed me And you cut me like a loaf But lying on the gurney Bleeding like a pig I took your hands and worried How, without me, you'd live Even when it's hurting I hope you understand what you are to me I hope you understand what you are to me, ah-ah And maybe I deserve it I hope you understand what you are to me I hope you understand what you are to me, ah-ah I wanna take you with me Airplane food for two I'll put you in my suitcase And come out barely bruised I'm so scared of the distance I'm scared of how you feel When you're back in his living room And I'm holding back tears Now I'm sucking on a stranger And I'm picturing you move You speak to me in languages You learned in boarding school Even when it's hurting I hope you understand what you are to me I hope you understand what you are to me, ah-ah And maybe I deserve it I hope you understand what you are to me I hope you understand what you are to me ♪ I don't wanna move out west, wait on tables in Venice Beg my brother for money and a credit card for the rest Falling sicker and sicker of the bartering with myself Sign my life to a label, getting famous and getting shelved No, I don't wanna fol–, I don't wanna follow Do you have anything to say? (What do I have to say?) Anything else Even when it's hurting I hope you understand what you are to me I hope you understand what you are to me, ah-ah And maybe I deserve it I hope you understand what you are to me I hope you understand what you are to me, ah-ah