I should have died five years ago A young man growing slow Hole in my chest, I was bleeding out I almost died my freshman year Looking at some pictures and I feel emotional Thank God I am alive, right here Darkness in my head I, was trapped inside my bed I probably should be dead Thank God I ain't dead I look at pictures of myself I barely recognize myself A young kid trapped inside of hell I see pictures of myself I thank God I am so well Oh Lord why did I have to go through so much? My eyes, you'll see the strain A never ending pain Keep my blinds closed, don't let them see me Stayed away from lunch, they felt no pity Broke down in art class, alone I'm sitting The one they thought they knew, had gone missing