I don't feel like me Whatever that's supposed to be I've crossed lines i never thought i'd cross My only retreat is falling asleep But I lie awake every night of the week And think about how much worse it's become I don't feel like me Whatever that's supposed to be I'm a different person every time I come home How can I be so lonely When you're in the room right next to me Why has it been like these my whole life? I need to say it, I need more I need the feeling that I had before I got back and started on this whole routine again Always upstream, always against the grain I need to say it, I need more I need the feeling that I had before I got back and started on this whole routine again Always upstream, always against the grain And nothing will ever change Nothing will ever change Ever change Nothing will ever change