I couldn't sleep at all last night
So I opened up my eyes, it was three a.m
My mind spinning around in the dark and
The past just like that ceiling fan
It was only one in California
I stared at my phone like it was a loaded gun
Said on second thought
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up
What it means to be in love
Or if enough is ever gonna be enough
Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone
When I find what it is I want
Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the only one
Mama always worried but I never saw that worry fix a thing
Said I'd never be like that
But give me one bad day and a few good drinks
There I go, rabbit hole
Wondering what the hell does it all mean
What really matters, who am I, and am I where I'm supposed to be?
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up
What it means to be in love
Or if enough is ever gonna be enough
Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone
When I find what it is I want
Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the only one
Thinking about how life just goes too fast
Thinking about all the things I can't take back
Thinking about why am I thinking about that
Sometimes I want to pack a U-Haul up
And just leave it all and run
Tell her she's the only thing I want
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up
Or what it means to be in love
Or if enough is ever gonna be enough
Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone
When I find what it is I want
Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up
What it means to be in love
Or if enough is ever gonna be enough
Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone
When I find what it is I want
Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the only one