I don't got hate for myself, I got nothing to say to me
I spend every day with me
I'm tired, I need an escape
It's hard to relate to me
Straight out the bottle, no chasing it
Look at my eyes, I'm a space cadet
Just a matter of time, I'm embracing death
Dead pool, you should place a bet
I'm in the bowels of war
But I feel no stress when I let it pour
But it all come back when I can't run back
Anything that even happened the night before
Always gonna fall on the sharpest sword
Always gonna sleep on the hardest floor
You can still see light in the darkest corner
But you still feel lost when it's unexplored
So I'mma see black 'til my eyes adjust
'Til my time is up, 'til my mind is fucked
Limp around town on the Irish crutch
With a belly full of whisky and self-disgust
Peekin' at my own dead body through splayed hands
As I grunt and I drool like a caveman
Fucked up, I'm a fool
With a room with a view of a wasteland
Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe
Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong
Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe
Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong
Puke in my mouth, I got used to the flavor
Face on the porcelain, photo engraver
Memories fade and they float in the air
Like dusk casting shadows and sodium vapor
Waking up in situations
Feeling like I'm living in suspended animation
Guess I'm still sober on occasion
And that's enough for me to rationalize inebriation
I told you I ain't right, you knew it going in
Just shut the fuck up if you wanna be a friend
I don't want to stretch you more than you extend
I don't want to spit in the hand that you lend
I did it to myself, I get what I deserve
Thoughts in my head, feel like a raw nerve
I'm lookin' for an answer, I don't want to hurt but
I just want to sleep when I'm tired of earth
Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe
Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong
Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe
Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong
Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cuz my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cuz the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe
Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cuz I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cuz I been living wrong