Download my thoughts since I put them online
'Fore this bullet leaves my brain, really opens up my mind
Doesn't matter how I feel, I'll just say I'm doing fine
Spending so much fucking money, like I'm running out of time
I'm the captain of the new wave
Friendships capsize, nobody's getting save
It's a warning, you should stay away
Swim close and then watch me fade away
Paypal money coming in
Bitch I'm drowning
They tell me that she wanna come and swim
I'm busy counting
Shine so bright, finna guy hit by lightning
I just feel the void, but at noon I can't find it
I got everything I need
I know you're not here
But you're a nightmare in my dreams
Really wish you'd disappear cause I could barely get some sleep
And I don't really like to talk, I just wanna wait and see
You don't see me when I'm gone
Don't see you empty
Fuck everybody else
I'm a one man team
I just wanna disappear, since I'm never really here
I'm a cloud drippin' tears with the ice chandelier
I guess they don't care, young trash twenty years
Don't know what I'm doing, don't know why I'm still here
(Don't know why I'm still here)
I just wanna disappear (I just wanna disappear)
(I just wanna disappear)
I don't wanna be here (I don't wanna be here)
(I don't wanna be here)
I just wanna disappear
I don't wanna be here
When you see me I be flexin'
Actin' like I'm fine
But inside I be stressin'
And now I'm second guessin'
Baby talkin' money, really I'm just countin' blessings
Oh, you thinkin' that you know me now
But if it's true then I need you to show me how
Only hangin' with my homies now
I know I'm stupid thinkin' you would hold me down
I don't know why I stay awake
I'm livin' in my dreams, I just wanna fade away
Give a fuck what they say
Got my team by my side
I just wanna stay safe
I don't know why they all fake
It isn't what it seems, I just gotta maintain
Now the sky's always grey
From today until day
Let me down in the grave