I always tell myself to be patient But my left hand shakes Against your new couch Control of the situation Fell through my fingers I heard her say: "You can't keep living as if you're dying" Well, I'm dying Now in an awkward way To spend the holiday In such a deviant way to behave It's amazing how quiet this house is When the world outside, It celebrates their new years And their new fears Your addiction is okay, 'Cause it's manically approved And the night has expired Lay me down to sleep But one more thing can you say diction And admit my guilt, emergency And emergency It's whispered at night Now in an awkward way To spend the holiday In such a deviant way to behave It's amazing how quiet this house is When the world outside, It celebrates their new years And their new fears