I don't really know what I feel inside
Break this down just to get inside
An roll it back up just to clear my mind
I wanna get away
This shit is constantly changing but
I love the way that it makes me feel
I love the way that I'm addicted to pain
It's what I grew up on
This shit don't feel real
I'm deep in my head
I heard what you said
I left you on read
An tried to forget
Everything that happen
But I don't know I have to feel like this
I'm stuck in my head
I smoke too much
Don't eat enough
An barely sleep at all
Woke up to the phone ring in my head
It was all a dream cause I'm wide awake
Just looking at you
Now I can't escape
This reality don't know what to do
I feel so much pain
I hurt in my mind
I hurt everyday
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
Now I'm running around with this damn pain
Stuck in my mind I can't feel a thing
I'm fucked inside trynna heal myself
I try to hide what I'm feeling
So used to not feeling shit at all
So used to not feeling shit at all
Couple years ago
I was feeling fine didn't even know
That life would just change
But time flys now I feel sideline, Contracting jet lag from how fast we were moving
Trynna let go but I don't know how to do it
I wanna give up but I can't do that to them
Wanna live life with you right beside me
But I'm fucked up
An I love feeling hurt
Cause that's all they gave me
I'm inspired by the pain itself
I been tired since the age of 12
Can't hate on me cause I hate myself
I miss you more than I miss myself
Please don't let me go I will fucking drown
Break this down to get inside
Roll it right back up just to clear my mind
I wanna get away this shit is constantly changing but
I love the way it makes me feel