Five seconds counting down
Is it the end of my life
I hope I don't
I hope I do
I love you
You hate me
I wake up in a bad mood
Depressed an a mess from the day before
Get dressed I'm up it's 4am
I've been awake for like twenty minutes
Already in this fucked up state of mind
I'm sad that it's mine but I'm happy too
Can you give me like five minutes of just peace an quiet
Can you give me like two tries to get this right
Matter fact just one time
Imma do it right now
Imma do it right now
Let's go
Got drugs in this bag and it's already rolled
I hope it gets me numb
Four thirty-four an it's been ten minutes since I looked at the clock an I seen your image on the lockscreen
Girl I love this I love that
I'm stressed out an upset making progress towards the end of the world
Two days three nights it'll all be gone
Some days I hope you'll prove me wrong but you never do
It's an endless cycle take drugs as a way too cope
Never wanna feel what I felt growing up
My dads never showing up
My moms on drugs still to this day
But so am I
Too much an it'll all be gone
Two months from now I hope I'm sober
Can't wait for it too bring me down
Locked in this room I can't get out
She looked at me I looked at her
She probably feels the same way
Goddamn if I don't get rich soon
We probably won't make it out
And all the money in the world could never replace us
I'd give my life for you
I'd jump right off this bridge
What goes on in my head
What goes on in my head
I hope you never feel this way
I pray I never wake up
Cause everyday is too much
I'm taking too many fucking drugs to drown the thoughts in my head
It sucks
But I can't keep holding it in
My fault not yours
I'm addicted too pain
Late nights when the suns down I feel like I'm not even here
It's twelve am I'm searching around the room for a lighter
But I drank too much can't find it
Save me from my fucking self
This world too much and I feel alone
I might make a bad decision with this blurry vision
I wish I didn't but it's all too late
Wake up on the next day
An it's the same thing
An it's the same thing
Same thing