Eyes wide open Whenever you're near I'm counting down the days Because I know what's coming There's a point I know I'll break Can you hear me? Am I even calling? I've lost all control My blood flow is so cold Finding no comfort in myself for a second When you let me close I'm afraid you'll push me away Unless I push you away first? Will it save me? Waking up to the sound of your heartbeat Ever running from the pain it could cause me The anxiety set in, it shattered Everything fell on top of me I can't find the will to push you away I just want you to understand But there's no way for you to know Because I can't find the right words to say (Because I can't find the right words) I just want to be there for one more day Waking up to the sound of your heartbeat Ever running from the pain it could cause me The anxiety set in, it shattered Everything fell on top of me All the ways I want to fix things, but I'm just a mess The walls are closing in faster and faster The sky is falling, my skin's crawling And it's so cold I'm sweating But if I can't see the light, does that mean it's burnt out? No!