It's boiling up, a constant hunger I've been yearning for so long You'd start to think that I'd get used to this with every problem I dwell on I'm still suffering, is this what I need? A new love for a false sense of peace Justify the sad excuse of a stranger I call "me" Of a stranger I call "me" And if you pull the heartstrings, I'm closed in with clipped wings I couldn't be enough for anyone when I hate myself And I'll pretend that I'm okay like this Can you tell by my tone of voice? It's not up to choice for getting out of this bed I'm in I'm staying dormant in dark places, I fall right back in I concealed the guilt, tearing down any love I built Now I'm wearing thin I'm letting go, as you're slipping (feel it all cave in) Will this pain be useful someday? Pessimism finds its way to keep seeping through my veins And if you pull the heartstrings, I'm closed in with clipped wings I couldn't be enough for anyone when I hate myself (hate myself!) The peace offering doesn't mean anything When all I see are these insecurities, making me my enemy And I'm all worn down I can't wait this out And my mental health is defeated now And I heard the sound in this broken house The memory serves me well Please, could you pick up the phone? I'd say it all, I'd make it known That I'm not what I seem And you're everything in between someone who's leaving And if you pull the heartstrings, I'm closed in with clipped wings I couldn't be enough for anyone when I hate myself (hate myself!) The peace offering doesn't mean anything When all I see are these insecurities, making me my enemy And if you pull the heartstrings, I'm closed in with clipped wings I couldn't be enough for anyone when I hate myself (hate myself!) The peace offering doesn't mean anything When all I see are these insecurities, making me my enemy