My self depravity! A stark duality! Stare into the black, black, black! Depressive reality...! A masochist who can't feel a thing! The paradox is suffocating me! Well it gets better but it feels like it's worse Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse I know it's better but I think it gets worse Until they put me in the dirt! 'Cause every day that I should wake up grateful! I'm pulled back into a negative space! Still fear I'm not enough Failure stitched in my seams It's all fiction! Horrific depiction! Violent condition! Well it gets better but it feels like it's worse Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse I know it's better but I think it gets worse Until they put me in the dirt Or can I ever overcome it and learn? Do I endeavor to retain all my hurt? I know it's better but I think it gets worse Until they put me in the dirt! I can't live up to what you want from me I'm not enough, failure stitched in my seams Well it gets better but it feels like it's worse Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse I know it's better but I think it gets worse (Until they put me in the dirt) Well it gets better but it feels like it's worse Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse I know it's better but I think it gets worse Until they put me in the dirt! Or can I ever overcome it and learn? Do I endeavor to retain all my hurt? I know it's better but I think it gets worse Until they put me in the dirt!