Sitting in my room alone now
Everything is getting cold now
I just wanna be much bolder
But I feel them on my shoulder
As I get older all the things I told her
Never seemed to smolder flame died when I scold her
Did I fold her
Queen in my hand maybe I should just hold her
But these games that we're playing aren't making pairs
You looking at me like I'm forever staying unaware
But I came prepared for the devil grin you'd wear
At least I thought so but here I'm sinking in despair
It's not like it's new to me
Everybody always just using me
But the way you and I were fusing seemed
Like maybe just for once you wouldn't be abusing me
I was still alone when you took me in
Thinking that I'd be better with a friend
Now I'm sinking into your darkest sin
But I'm not strong enough just to make it end
Too used to hating myself so
If you try to do it I'll mistake it for love know
Everything you're doing is erasing me so slow
Down if you wanna try to use it for your show
Clown I'm an entertainer downing the bitter flavor
Of what I used to savor joys that I forgo
Now not a time for later hop on the elevator
Push all my buttons so I stop before I go down
Before I go down in a pit of flames
What a shame
The feeling I get in the pit of my stomach when I hear your name
Now it isn't the same
Cause before I use to love it now I hate it
You been playing these games
Not a day goes by where I don't think why you and I couldn't make things work
The apple of my eye went and took a bite
You convinced me of the trouble you're worth
But as time went by you showed your inner Eve
And that apple was from the Forbidden tree
You gave it to me hoping that I wouldn't notice it
But I know that it came with a fee
Our love use to burn with a fiery passion
But now it's just ashes and miles of flames
Your eyes were the windows inside of your soul
But now they're just windows that fill me with pain
I was still alone when you took me in
Thinking that I'd be better with a friend
Now I'm sinking into your darkest sin
But I'm not strong enough just to make it end
Too used to hating myself so
If you try to do it I'll mistake it for love know
Everything you're doing is erasing me so slow
Down if you wanna try to use it for your show
Clown I'm an entertainer downing the bitter flavor
Of what I used to savor joys that I forgo
Now not a time for later hop on the elevator
Push all my buttons so I stop before I go down