I swear no one ever really cared for me
I got on my own stop playing with me
Took a bunch of hits and calamity
Fuck is you doing just staring at me
The shit I do for my family
Guarantee I'll lose my sanity, well
What you was expecting when I go pick up the weapon
Everybody yelling when the bullets intersecting
This is what you deal with, with the punisher
Imma shut em up like a muffler
Dealt with the pain and I suffered
Not much left to recover
Trauma had turn me to a monster
Guilt eating me like Dahmer
Tried to fuck with me you're a goner
Every single one I gotta slaughter
If you lay a hand on my daughter
I'm ripping off every fucking limb
No longer gonna live
Put the metal to your mental, there's a lot I gotta settle
When you're coming from the ghetto, it's a different type of level
There's a lot I overcame but I'm living with the pain
So get me novocaine I can put it to my brain
I don't wanna feel what I feel, I don't wanna think what I think
If I gotta kill Imma kill, about to go over the brink
There's a lot of things that I try keep inside
I try to act tough but really it's a lie
Try to call my bluff then you'll really be surprised
Your gonna see me change to a different type of guy
I don't like who I became
Only thing same is my name
They took away who I was
Gotta make all of them pay
I don't want anyone to pity me
Look at myself as the epitome
As a bad day that went differently
Lot of people wanna get rid of me
I know I can't change the past
If I could would've done in a flash
And tell my father be a dad
And say mom your all that I had
It's not how it works, gotta live with the hurt
Taste a lot of dirt, and always be alert
Can't trust no one that's what gets you killed
Ones that were close that left you to feel
Feels like a stab in the back
Do you recover from that
I would've never done that
And I put my life on that, so
Now I gotta change who I am, damn
Kill or be killed got too many plans
No ones gon stop me cause I won't let em
Put on the vest then I go and get em
Just cause I help I'm far from savior
Including myself put everyone in danger
When it's all done I'll leave one in the chamber
Long as I know fuck a pen and a paper
But for now, I just hang em on meat hooks
Don't believe go see in the freezer
They boutta see that I got a mean hook
Skull on my chest I guess is the reaper
At the end of the day when I knock em down
They don't get back up
But I do gotta say when you knock em down
They get back up like they don't give a fuck
Truth be told I don't know who I am
Everything I do I don't understand
I got screws loose and I can't tighten them
Demons in my head, I keep fightin them
I just want them to feel my pain
Show how it feels like every day
Too far gone I won't be the same
Got no strength I'm bleeding away