I'm losing track of the days again Searching for something to say to them, something benign I've been feeling so invisible lately Do they know I'm still here, do they hate me? And I just looked at my phone again Desperately trying to hold it in, biting my tongue 'Til it bleeds, I just need to be noticed Could you spare just a piece of a moment 3AM still no response Feel ashamed to even want Wondering where have you gone And I'm dying just to know what you are thinking But I know the consequences won't be minor if I ask If I don't know then I can just keep on pretending that it's fine If I inquire there's no way to take it back, another panic attack Another looming catastrophe I don't know how to act Line my chest with bubble wrap to try and keep it intact Maybe I just need a little more time to redefine But do you want it like I do?