I must have been this way for years Fixating on my own worst fears I can't take what I find Like I wish I was blind Now I can't stop my mind If only I could live in an monotone world I'd be numb to the voice inside of me My heart's on ten I search for zen As I wade through my anxiety The worries runnin' through my veins Too many things that I can't change And I just want control And this will take its toll On my body Mind and soul If only I could live in an monotone world I'd be numb to the voice inside of me My hearts on ten I search for zen As I wade through my anxiety Don't need a diagnosis of my mental health Cuz I want the whole world All to myself If only I could live in an monotone world I'd be numb to the voice inside of me My hearts on ten I search for zen As I wade through my anxiety Oh if only I could live in an monotone world I'd be numb to the voice inside of me My hearts on ten I search for zen As I wade through my anxiety