I love you, I hate you, I'm on the fence, it all depends
Whether I'm up, I'm down
I'm on the mend, transcending on reality
I like you, despise you, admire you
What are we gonna do when everything all falls through?
I must confess, I've made a mess of what should be a small success
But I digress, at least I've tried my very best, I guess
This, that, the other, why even bother?
It won't be on my deathbed
Rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends
Rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends
My internal monologue is saturated analog
It's scratched and drifting, I'm attached to the idea
It's all a shifting dream, a bittersweet philosophy
I have no idea how I even got here
I'm resentful, I'm having an existential time crisis
Want bliss, daylight savings won't fix this mess
I'm under-worked and over-sexed, I must express my disinterest
The rats are back inside my head
I'm rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends
Rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends
Drug me, fuck me, dull the pain
I don't ever want to know
Knock me down and I'll get up again
You know that I'll do what I'm told
I got a speck of truth caught in my eye
Stings like hell and it's making me cry
Getting up would only leave me wondering why
Everything is turning grey
And now I'm rotting my brain once again
(Put me on a pedestal, I'll only disappoint you)
It's always the same and it never ends
Rotting my brain once again
(Tell me I'm exceptional, I promise to exploit you)
It's always the same and it never ends
Rotting my brain once again
(Give me all your money, I'll make some origami, honey)
It's always the same and it never ends
Rotting my brain once again
(I think you're a joke, but I don't find you very funny)
It's always the same and it never ends