I have no idea what went wrong, and it's worse than knowing
My heart for the first time is revolving as fast as my thoughts
But I don't care
Why don't I care?
There's nothing that seems to matter anymore
And there's nothing left for me to say
Hold my hands, don't let me get through this alone
It feels like something will go horribly wrong
I don't care, my self stare fades away, crushed
Crossing my fingers to shove it away, fading into nothing
Must move on, must go away
Dysfunction
When did my innocence leave?
When did I become so fucking hopeless?
I can't remember the last time I felt calm
Why don't I care?
There's nothing that seems to matter anymore
And there's nothing left for me to say
Hold my hands
Watery eyes, cracked lips
A shadow that walks past the crowd
Trying to create something meaningful to myself
Nothing feels right
A shadow that walks alone
Devoured by a thought
Fear that never seems to stop
Alone
In my thoughts
I hear them call
And I'm feeling hoarse
Can't recall a situation where I stay wherever I really want to be
My self-esteem makes it hard for me to realize that I can do better
Why don't I fucking care?
Is it a lie that I don't care?
There's nothing that makes me more anxious
And I know I can do better than this