If then, I meet you along the way Where the laurel trees surround us on every side If then, in a small space, I stand alone And turn my head, and you smile there If then, I reach out and touch your form Where all your silence, and your chaos meets Where everything joins and parts ♪ If I may once clutch your heart And pull its beauty to my face There the blood-fall falls, red river cracks Behind me lies black mother mountain The goats wheel 'round, great sign of lust And how much I wanted you And, oh Christ, how much more I want you now The great pain, the great misery To look and look To look and look And look and look ♪ And find Nihil