Novana, no nirvana Blowing up, feel like Osama I might need to chill, I might trigger someone trauma I swear that this shit is way too easy, feel like gunna I'm a loner, I'm a lost, 'cause, I'm a mess Wanna hold her, baby can you call me again? I'm a soldier, y'all don't even know that's what I meant Like a boulder, I'mma go through anything that's in My path, on a road of being what I know I can, learning to let go of all the things I can't keep in my control, like a Buddhist I don't wanna feel like I'mma lose it I ain't have shit, all I had was music Ain't a tactic No, you cannot do this Think I'm magic, abra cadabra I ain't ever lose her I ain't ever have her How can you lose what you ain't ever had? How do you all of fucking that? Making all these different genres, still ain't sounding bad I don't really even wanna, I feel like it calls me Put myself into this shit so much, I think I lost me That's why I need it, it let me hold on When I feel like shit When I do not wanna go on When I feel like this No single thought inside my head I'm in the abyss, I'm not alive, not dead I've always existed, this is just the body I'm in now Time's no longer ticking, I'm in bliss I know there's only now I don't know why it took me so long To know why me no like people Most not alive and most rather cry Than get off their asses and stop all the lies I do not like that, I gotta keep on Taking my life back 'til I can't keep on With every breath in my body I will do Be feel anything that I will