I didn't grow up in an abusive home, I am one
I've tried to leave this sour place a thousand times
From the start I made self-sabotage my anthem
Like being who I am is self-harm in disguise
'Cause something deep inside me's broken
I'm not allowed to feel a thing
Every loving word means nothing
I'm obsessed with suffering
Lately, thinking feels like cutting
Every thought's a razor blade
(If only I had someone else to blame)
Wish I could run away
From myself, from myself
But there is no escape
When you're the prison cell
Wish I could run away
From myself, from myself
I plead for better days
But get thrown back in hell
Wish I could run away from myself
Wish I could run away from myself
Who the hell can forgive my sins? I wrote this gospel
Stuck in a cage of skin that always will remind me
That all the alcohol can't numb this, I'm the bottle
Whoever changed just to kill this ghost will change my mind
Wish I could run away
From myself, from myself
But there is no escape
When you're the prison cell
Wish I could run away
From myself, from myself
I plead for better days
But get thrown back in hell
Wish I could run away from myself
Wish I could run away
'Cause something deep inside me's broken
I'm not allowed to feel a thing
Every loving word means nothing
I'm obsessed with suffering
Lately, thinking feels like cutting
Every thought's a razor blade
If only I had someone else to blame
♪
Wish I could run away
From myself, from myself
But there is no escape
When you're the prison cell
Wish I could run away
From myself, from myself
I plead for better days
But get thrown back in hell
♪
I didn't grow up in an abusive home, I am one