Shawty always wanna change for me
Shawty always wanna change for me
Then tells me "I hate you" she hates me
I never want you to change for me
Never want you to change for me
Cause you hate me yuh
I hate me too
I apologize to everyone that I've ever did wrong
Point. blank. period. so I'm writing these songs
To forever write my wrongs it's hard to move on
But I know no matter what I can never erase those wrongs
I wanna tell you all of my problems and thoughts
From the bad to the good, in my head there's a lot
But it's bad for you, to pour any of this negative onto you. So what do I do?
I keep it to myself, let it grow in my head
Let it pulsate my heart, let it stack up my bread
Pain is the rain, flower is the music
Keep me rooted, why are people so God damn illusive?
Trying to find a balance in the music and my mental
Too much pain can weigh me down it can be detrimental
In my head, why do I give people a lifelong rental
Who don't deserve it, I'm too real too sentimental
I wish i can go to you, God
The only one who can judge me, who will always love me
I will always trust the path that you chosen for me
But tell me why you give me so much adversity
Maybe its for my artistry maybe its for my armory
Maybe it's so no one can ever hit the heart of me
I've begged to you on my knees to heal the pain,
To help the people I love and help them do the same
But it's forever right? I've learned that lesson lately
Time will heal it, but it's gonna remain in you greatly
And if you get lazy, it's gonna drive you crazy
For my own safety, one day at a time, stay steady
Gonna be shaky, filled with bumps and bruises
Luckily, the only thing I got is me and my music
It's the reason I'm reclusive, it's how my mind diffuses
It transfers me out where I don't feel like a nuisance
Conversating feeling like a ghost trapped in a shell
Cause I feel like no ones really listens to me and my hell
Nowadays, everyone's in a different planet
I had it, I try to speak but they just add to this damage
Rob me of my peace like a bandit
When I try to speak about my pain, you don't try to understand it
You try to take advantage better off leaving me abandoned, uh
Only time I feel heard is when I paint my words on a canvas
Sometimes, I can put in a panic
Where I can't manage, have the feeling of wanting to vanish
Staying average is a thought, so I dont have to carry all of this baggage
But that's not me, always been the type to take up a challenge
Stay famished, till I'm living lavish with wisdom and expand it
Ohhhh
Holding my own don't need no else, no I don't
I know the feeling of being alone and there's no one close
Oh
So tell, tell, tell me how you want me to be
Tell, tell me how you want me to be
Tell me how you want me to be
Tell me why you always gotta lie to me
Tell me why you always gotta lie to me
I can't take it
Cause you will break it
Tell me why you always gotta lie to me
Tell me why you always gotta lie to me
I wish I could go to you
But I know you already have enough on your plate
Damn, I wish I could go to you
So you can help me heal the ache like God
I'm in pain