Lately, I've been tryna let it go
Obsessin' over everything is all I've ever known
Got this little forest in my head, it's overgrown
I'm tryna get to Eden where my interest is my own
I imagine a better life with nature in my left or right
Nurture a better sight with wrongs and never right
Show 'em my inner light invested in better heights
With happiness every night, we fill up with every bite
Ay, this is what I'm tryna get to
Vivid images of where I got no fuckin' issues
Too many privileges, I'm right, I'm really nothin to lose
But 24, later focus shifted on a tight noose
And I know
I'm so blessed and I'm stressed
Sticking to my demons 'less I say what's on my chest
Hard to say the reasons I believe I know what's best
Hard to trust myself, I just accept what you suggest
And honestly
I could live my life for others, don't let me be
I could live the love to suffer, don't let me free
I could do this shit for summers, that time I need
I could be the one who wonders, that shit ain't me
I won't let it take over
Devil on my shoulder, suicide is edging closer
I won't ever let it consume me
But I still find it using me
Lately, I've been tryna let it go
Obsessin' over everything is all I've ever known
Got this little forest in my head, it's overgrown
I'm tryna get to Eden where my interest is my own, yeah
Lately, I've been tryna let it go
Obsessin' over everything is all I've ever known
Got this little forest in my head, it's overgrown
I'm tryna get to Eden where my interest is my own, yeah
Woah, woah, don't lie to yourself
We all got different dreams, different roles, keep on the shelf
You too afraid to let 'em out, so you keep 'em within
See the list of why you living getting shorter and thin
And I'd be lying if I said I didn't question
Now before we's craving all attentionary mention
Maybe I'd be better off grounded, no ascension
My pastor's only doubt, why'm I making this connection
For the past 2 years I've been alone in my room
Writing, working, tryna shoot for the moon
Waiting, watching, tryna nurture and bloom
With the clock strapped tight on my head ringing soon
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Oh wait, I forgot to mention my depression been here with me
Random shadows on the wall
I've really seen 'em all
And now I know if anybody care about me
But I'm tryna make it so they give a fuck about me