There's a hole in the earth in the spot where you stood When you left and I couldn't figure out if you were ever coming back It took me so long to realize that this wasn't Temporary There's a hole in me permanently that grew bigger every day Until I could finally understand And accept that you weren't coming back That hole is still there But I'm trying to make it smaller I still feel so small and consumed by it I don't have much room to spare Some days I am merely a shell eaten away by all of my trauma Mourning is eternal Mourning is eternal Some days I am healed Some days it's just as hard as the first I still feel empty sometimes I still feel empty a lot of the time I think about what you might think of me now Would you like how I turned out? Would you be proud? They always said I took after you Same eyes, same nose, prone to freckling and sunburns I wonder if I'll make it to 50 or take after you that way, too I'm working on trying to feel something more than regret Guilt, constant I'm working on trying to feel something more than regret Guilt, constant It's taken me years to write these words down And say them out loud like this I'm trying not to be so scared to say them I hope it will make your memory last Maybe this too will burn eternal I hope it will make your memory last Maybe this too will burn eternal I hope it will make your memory last Maybe this too will burn eternal Maybe this too will burn eternal