I've been going out almost every night
At least I'm trying
Trying to get better
And I'm staying out later every time
Trying to feel connected
Trying to feel alive
I've been spending time with people that I like
Trying to stay focused on trying to get by
But I'm still spending time
Overthinking things
All the progress that I make
Just doesn't seem to take
I'm in a loop of my bad habits
I keep repeating all the patterns
(I'm caught in a perpetual dream state of
I would've held you if you were shaking
I would've held you if your bones were aching
I would've comforted you
I would've comforted you
I've cried everyday this week
I've decided that sensitivity is my biggest strength
Bad memory
I hope it will make your memory last
Maybe this too will burn eternal
Out of touch, out of place, running out of time to waste
It's like I lost a part of myself that I
I can't get back, I can't get back
When did I get like this?
When did I end up like this?
I made myself sick swallowing yellow paint by the bucket
Feel like a ghost in your life)
I'm in a loop of my bad habits
I keep repeating all the patterns
I'm in a loop of my bad habits
I keep repeating all the patterns
I'm in a loop of my bad habits
I keep repeating all the patterns